I've been cheating on my girlfriend/fiancee

I've been cheating on my girlfriend/fiancee. It started when we were yet to be engaged. I went on a trip to a football game and after a night at the local strip club I got courious for some sex. I looked up an escort service in the phone book, never having done this before I was ver scared, and called.

...it was my first time with an escort. I paid her and we talked awhile before she gave me a mind blowing...

I was told there was one girl on call and after she called me back we agreed to meet in my room. She was very nice and understanding that it was my first time with an escort. I paid her and we talked awhile before she gave me a mind blowing BJ and then rode me to completion. We used protection the entire time, of course.

While searching for ways to find people to just hook up for sex I discovered a site that lists popular gay crusing sites. I'd never heard of this so I explored the website and became very curious. I then used this site to hook up with 4 different men for blow jobs and sex. I found I have a taste for guys, but only really get off with women. I still think about doing it again, but I have stopped. I'm still looking for that one last hookup I never have had. The only that is everything my fiancee isn't to end all. I hope I find it before we tie the knot, if not then I'll likely die never knowing what I'm missing but have always sought.

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