My secret

On the one side, I am married and have 1 child. On the other side, I am gay. I've been leading this double life since I realized a few years ago that i was indeed gay. I had my feelings prior but felt it was curiousity. Now that I have experienced another man, I know now that I prefer them over women. Problem is, I've realized this a little late in life.
It's frustrating knowing that I'll die a gay man in a straight man's life. I see no point of wrecking our happy home by coming out. I would alienate myself from my family by doing that. Then again, it's not like my family has ever been really close-knitt.
Thanks for letting me vent. Only two other people in the world know my story, but I guess more will now.

I feel relief!

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The Stories You Cannot Tell said...

Dear Post-er

This is a difficult issue to have to deal with. We understand how troublesome it must be for you, keeping your secrets inside like this.

Coming out takes a lot of courage, so does hiding a secret to protect your loved ones. We think this might be a case of "damned if you do- damned if you don't". Either way you are going to hurt someone along the way.

We hope you'll be able find peace inside yourself soon. Don't let this drag you down. Keep positive and perhaps this will work itself out over time.

Good luck!

Anonymous said...

Sure, you prefer them over women, but can you still enjoy women, at all? If so, I'd consider that more "Bi" than gay. It's a proven fact, there are very, very few true 50/50 bi folk out there. The vast majority have a preference of one sex over the other, they can just still enjoy the one they don't prefer. Maybe not as much, but it's still enjoyable.

Might be a solution to the problem. *shrug*

Just a thought.